Pain.

pain.md

• Grothendieck: The prince of abstraction retreated into hermetic silence, with a somewhat fractured mind from the few reports that exist of him at that period.
• Gödel: The man who broke logic, except logic turned right back and broke him, starving himself in a loop of paranoia, suspecting the air around him.
• Alan Turing: And the violence that was done to him due to him being a dual of sorts. While he might have managed to stabilize the dual forces within himself and found amazing generativity in the process, the society around him could not.
• Galois: His life is treated as "if only he did not engage in a dual, being stricken in love with that one girl"; I sometimes interpret it as suicide by dual. We all know the phenomenon of suicide by cop, so we can work backwards to understand certain decisions made by people in that light. (There is one interpretation that Socrates also committed suicide, given that he instigated and angered the jury purposefully to make the death sentence a foregone conclusion. Socrates was a protocoler and not a prover, which explains why he lived till 71; at 399 BC, that is pretty much a 200-year-old right there).
• Abel and Ramanujan: Both are suspected to have died of tuberculosis. Nothing is conclusively known about Ramanujan's ailment, as far as I know. 26 and 32. We must not discount the possibility that his body collapsed under the weight of the theorems he carried. There must have been a significant reduction in the energy needed for immune response, which these folks couldn't muster given the wattage they were burning at the top. These were minds that touched the infinite state, and it broke them.